Hooray I’m 40 ?

Surprisingly I have had a splendid day. In fact I actually found cause for celebration in turning 40. No mean feet given my propensity for drama and nihilism.  I am particularly surprised having always assumed that today would stand as an emblem of sadness, a towering monument to  the accumulated failings of my life. I was due to tell you that the gods had not just frowned upon me but that they had repackaged their toxic loathing and sold me off to a less scrupulous trader from the banks of hades.
But instead I am unwittingly and un-sentimentally happy. Indeed it has been something of a revelation that I have been decent enough to stay alive for so long. Quite why this is or how this uncertain state occurred, I haven’t a clue. But whatever the reason I do feel for once to be midway along an infinite line and I am glad to be here. Sure, this fresh relief may yet be temporary but at this golden age it’s just nice to feel something.